Back the Crick by Chris Gibbons

(Originally published in the Philadelphia Daily News, March 28, 2008)

“And perhaps across his mind there’ll flit a little errant wish, that a man might not have to become old, never outgrow the parks and the merry-go-rounds of his youth. And he’ll smile then too because he’ll know it is just an errant wish”.  Rod Serling narration from the Twilight Zone episode “Walking Distance”

As I walked through a Sporting Goods store recently, I noticed a small sign stating that “Opening Day” for trout season in Philadelphia is Saturday, March 29.  I smiled as I read it, because it conjured up pleasant memories from my youth of trout fishing, and opening days spent “back the crick” with my buddies.

The Wissahickon Creek (pronounced “crick” in Philly-speak) snakes through the northwest neighborhoods of Philadelphia, and it was an annual rite of spring for the young boys of Roxborough, Manayunk, and East Falls to prepare for opening day of trout season.  I’m told that it was very much the same thing in the NE Philly neighborhoods surrounding Pennypack Creek.  

My fellow fishermen in those days were the boys that I had grown up with, most of whom I’d known since I was 6 years old. We hung out under a Henry Avenue bridge, and called ourselves “The Bridge.”  Other guys in the neighborhood mockingly called us “The Trolls.”  It seemed as if our major goal in life back then was to make each other laugh, and we were pretty good at it, too.  We made up amusing nicknames for each other, most of which were references to some unique anatomical feature we possessed.  There was Curly, Freckle, Hair, Fly, Gut, and Chalk (because of his pale complexion).  A lot of these nicknames centered on head sizes or shapes, so we also had Brick Head, Pineapple Head, Bucket Head, Globin, and Boulder.  

We used to make up bawdy songs, with indecent lyrics that we would sing as we walked along the trails of the Wissahickon. We thought of ourselves as being great outdoorsmen simply because we knew how to light a fire with a magnifying glass and cook minute steaks in old pans we confiscated from our kitchens.  Our plan was to cook the fish that we caught and pretend that we could “live off the land” if we had to, but most of us weren’t very good at fishing.  Bucket Head and I once grabbed a dead trout that was floating downstream and fried it.  Of course, we had no idea what we were doing, and didn’t gut and bone the fish.  I can still remember my poor mother struggling to scrape the mysterious foul-smelling gristle from that old black pan.  But, that was nothing compared to what I had to scrape the day after I ate it.

One of my buddies was really quite good at fishing, and we used to call him “Fisherman.”  He could easily catch 25 trout in a single day.  He was also smart enough to get as far away from the rest of us as possible.  While we were busy un-snagging our lines, pushing each other into the creek, or throwing rocks in the water, Fisherman was 50 yards downstream catching trout and laughing at all of us.  We didn’t care though, and in the naïveté and exuberance of our youth we thought those days would last forever.  But, our fishing days together, and our adolescence, slowly began to fade with the passage of time.

I still enjoy hiking along the old trails of the Wissahickon Creek.  Whenever I’m there, I am always amazed by its beauty, and thankfully, it has changed very little over the years. Walking along the banks of the Wissahickon is like stepping back in time. I’ll often stop and listen to the wind as it whispers through the towering trees.  If I listen carefully, sometimes it carries with it the sounds of my past, and I can hear the laughter and singing of familiar young voices as an errant wish momentarily crosses my mind.  Perhaps the past can sometimes be within walking distance.  

I’ve decided I’m going to get my fishing gear together, and call Bucket Head, Fly, Hair, TK, Fisherman and some of the others from the old crew.  So, if you happen to see some middle aged guys with fishing rods walking across Henry Avenue in the early morning hours of some Saturday this spring, and they happen to be laughing while singing a crazy song in unison, don’t be alarmed.  It’s just the boys from The Bridge, and we’ll be heading “back the crick”.

AFTERWORD: Whenever I tell people who are from outside of the Philadelphia area my old neighborhood trout-fishing tales, I’m invariably met with a puzzled look, followed by, “I thought you grew up in Philly?”  What they don’t realize is that the Wissahickon Valley, which I regard as one of our country’s best kept secrets, is a unique pastoral oasis in our large Northeastern metropolis.  As a result of Roxborough’s close proximity to the Wissahickon Creek, it resulted in “Opening Day” of trout fishing season being one of the big annual events in our neighborhood.  I received quite a few e-mails from Daily News readers in which they fondly recalled their trout fishing days along the Wissahickon.  I also have many other fond memories of the Wissahickon, which include hiking with my father and siblings, and feeding the ducks with my young children, but one memory in particular is not so pleasant.  When I was about 8 or 9 years old, I was fishing “back the crick” with my older brothers and my cousins.  While we were leaving and climbing a steep hill, I slipped and badly sprained my ankle.  I couldn’t walk or put any weight on it, and was in so much pain that I thought it was broken.  My cousin Micky, several years older than me, put me on his back and carried me all the way home – a 2 mile journey that was frequently uphill over rugged terrain.  I remember thinking at the time that he was the strongest guy in the world.  At his father’s funeral in 2019, we tearfully recalled that day, and he told me that he has this article framed and displayed in his home.  

The Bridge by Chris Gibbons

(Edited version originally published in the November 27, 2016 Philadelphia Inquirer)

“The darkest night is often the bridge to the brightest tomorrow.” (Jonathan Lockwood Huie)

I was barely awake on that recent mid-summer morning as I started to read the text from Ed, one of my closest childhood friends.  It had been sent hours before, while I slept.  My heart raced faster as I read each word.  “Oh my God!”, I uttered.  My wife sat up in bed, alarmed by the pained expression on my face.  “What?!  What is it?!”, she asked.  I was still trying to comprehend what I was reading and couldn’t respond. “It’s….it’s Ed’s little daughter, Julia.  She was rushed to the hospital.  She’s really sick.  Something in her brain.”  I immediately called Ed, completely forgetting that it was 5am in Los Angeles.  As we spoke, for the first time in the 48 years that I’ve known him, I sensed fear in his voice.

In the days and weeks following that call, I couldn’t stop thinking about the terrible anxiety and heartache that Ed and his family were enduring, and how life, at times for all of us, can seem so difficult and unfair.  I was occasionally overwhelmed with feelings of helplessness in knowing that my friend and his family were struggling and there was nothing that I could do. 

It was also during this time that “The Bridge” seemed to be reaching out to me.  Although I’ve driven over the bridge at Henry and Valley Avenues in Roxborough hundreds of times in the last 40 years, I hadn’t really given much thought to the teenage years that I’d spent there with Ed and the other guys from our “crew”.   But now it seemed that each time I drove over it, something seemed to seep within my sub-conscience, a faint message tantalizingly close to clarity, yet elusive as the wind.  Maybe it was just simple nostalgia, or perhaps little Julia’s struggle triggered in me that innate desire, shared by many of us, to return to a simpler time when there was no fear, a time when the pressures wrought by the complexities of life didn’t seem to exist, a time when Ed and I had yet to cross over the threshold from adolescence into adulthood.  I cannot say.  But something linked to the bridge seemed to be calling out to me with an indistinct message that lay just beyond the periphery of my understanding.  I decided to go back to the bridge to see if I could find what that message may be.

As I walked towards the bridge on that hot summer day I wasn’t really sure of what I was looking for or what I’d find, but the memories of my days there suddenly flooded back.  I remembered that people in the surrounding neighborhood thought that it was strange that my buddies and I “hung out” under a bridge, and called us “trolls”.  We weren’t offended by the name, and actually reveled in the unique identity it created for us.  The bridge had a 50 foot x 15 foot leveled, compacted-dirt ledge directly underneath its northern side with a 9 foot floor to ceiling headroom.  It became our sanctuary that not only shielded us from the wind, rain, and snow, but also temporarily safeguarded our carefree teen spirit from the ever encroaching world of adulthood and responsibility.

I bounded down the old path that led underneath the bridge and my nostalgic visit to the past quickly became a sobering meeting with the present.  It seemed darker and colder than I remembered.  Spray-painted, bubble-letter graffiti, commonly found on old Philadelphia warehouse buildings, now adorned the walls.  It also appeared that someone was living there as a chair was positioned in front of a still-smoldering fire-pit.  There was an old coat, fast-food trash, jugs of water, and a large plastic container strewn around the dirt ledge.  All remnants of our days there were gone, and my positive memories of the place where lifelong friendships had been forged were now tarnished by what it had become.  It felt strange, yet oddly familiar, and as I looked at the empty chair, I couldn’t help but view it as an ominous warning of a life that may have been.

I walked up the path from underneath the bridge that day, convinced that there was no hidden message to be found there, but as I looked out onto Henry Avenue, I immediately noticed something very odd – there were no cars on the usually bustling roadway.  In that silent, surreal moment, I looked across the empty bridge towards the other side, and realized for the first time just how sharply it curved around the bend.  You couldn’t see what was on the other side of the bend, or where the road led – just like life. 

It was then that I finally understood the elusive message: rather than being a sanctuary, the bridge was akin to a damp cellar in which we hid.  It was only when we emerged from underneath it, and traveled on the road above it, did all of us finally reach the unique destinations that awaited us.  Many of us were fortunate enough to bring new lives into this world, which brought great joy and meaning to our journeys.  But Julia’s plight embodied the fear and heartache that can sometimes accompany us as we travel on the road of life.  The key is to confront and overcome these obstacles, rather than try to escape from them.

Thankfully, the news from Julia’s doctors gradually improved with each passing day.  It turns out that she has an AVM, a tangle of abnormal blood vessels connecting arteries and veins in her brain, but Julia’s case is highly treatable and she’s expected to make a full recovery.  The last time that I spoke to Ed, the fear in his voice was gone and I was proud of the way he and his wife, Adrianna, bravely confronted what has to be every parent’s nightmare.

I drove over the bridge recently, and noticed thin wisps of smoke drifting up from below.  It curled up and over the bridge, momentarily morphing into the ghostly apparitions of young boys and drifting far up into the sunlit sky until gradually fading away.  I watched it disappear as I crossed the bridge, and rounded the bend, towards whatever destination awaited me on the other side.

AFTERWORD

As I write this in January, 2020, I’m happy to report that Julia has recovered quite well over these last 3 ½ years, and, now a vibrant, young teenager, is doing just fine.  In regards to the Bridge, some of my friends thought that I was a bit too harsh in my assessment of it (ie:”… rather than being a sanctuary, the bridge was akin to a damp cellar in which we hid.”), as they have many fond recollections of our days and nights spent there.  I have great memories of it as well, but metaphorically speaking, I still believe that the Bridge represented the path that we had to take in order to cross that sometimes scary gulf separating adolescence and adulthood.  My friends and I temporarily stopped our journey, and went under the Bridge until we were ready to cross it.  Looking back, perhaps I was a bit harsh – because we sure did have a lot of fun there before it was time to go!

More stories of growing up in Philadelphia, as well as the harrowing stories of America’s war veterans, and the triumphs of space exploration can be found in the new book by Philadelphia writer, Chris Gibbons: “Soldiers, Space, and Stories of Life”. Amazon.com link is below: